What is it about this time of year? Is it the birds chirping, the green grass, the buds on the trees? Maybe it’s the smell. You know the smell. The smell that tells you that it’s spring. I wish I could bottle that smell up and crack it open mid-January. Whatever it is, spring makes you think.

Spring cleaning to me isn’t just about attacking the dust bunnies, and let’s face it, I’m not into housework anyway. For me, this spring in particular, seems deeper than that. It’s a time to re-evaluate the year so far. Heck, it’s almost April - the year is a quarter over (Or there are three quarters left, if you please).

Three months ago, I was writing about how I am going into this year with no expectations. Approaching 2012 as a leaf caught in the wind, opening myself up to wherever the year takes me. I have a confession. Three months in and I’m struggling. I’m falling back into my old patterns. I’m over thinking and I’m underestimating my abilities. I am letting the future overwhelm my present.

It’s this time of year that people fall off of their New Year’s resolutions, it’s no different for me and my un-resolution. 2012 will never be what it was meant to be if I don’t get out of it’s way. Sometimes, the best way to move forward is to shut up, sit down, and let the world move you. As simple as it sounds, staying out of your own way is by far one of the hardest things a person can do. Our brains are cluttered with our own personal dust bunnies.

While you’re all out there cleaning out your closets and getting the backyard garden ready. I’ll just be over here. Sitting still. Shutting up. And letting spring clean me.